Something magical unfurled in a meeting today. We were doing a deep dive into svadhyaya, self study. The topic moved to a dream I’d had the night before. In this dream a golden kitten had told me in utter innocence that it had a forever love for me. An ever and ever love. I could feel it’s love, totally unguarded and torrential. In the dream I sobbed. I wanted access to allow that kind of love to flow within me, also allowing for adulthood wisdom.
With my mentor we found the sentence within me “I will always love you”. It landed in my chest, deep in my heart, but just in front of it was a brick wall. That wall stopped me getting hurt, stopped others taking too much from me. It also stopped the flow of my ever love.
She asked what I felt when I connected to that love. It was light, fizzing, images of a carousel, helter skelters and painted poles in multi colour vertical stripes. The feeling was of childhood elation, fair grounds and upwards momentum. My adult mind would describe it as high vibration and my mystical priestess as miracles.
I wondered, did I really have access to this incredible energy I was feeling, just from focusing on it in my body and mind? It felt like the kind of energy that could heal anything, physically and mentally. It felt like Christ’s miracle working energy. It also felt like home.
If I was to let that love loose in my body, how long would it take for my most shadowy body areas to respond? The swamp of despair.. How long until it’s ecosystem adapted to the vibration and sweetness of that love, that felt like joy, laughter and a complete embrace? God, I was mind blown! It was like a new door had opened and my mind was scrambling to translate it into images.
If that love was a sandwich, what would it be? Something indulgent, off the wall but bizarrely works 🤔😂 If it was an image.. A yoga pose.. I felt like that energy could infuse and inspire anything and I couldn’t wait to explore.
So here I am, typing, allowing the memories to inspire these words.
Let love in ❤️
I was encouraged to receive this love, rather than give it all away, and how would that look? The image of an Alice in Wonderland style tea party popped up. Tiny sandwiches, tea, little cakes, otherworldly animals, keys, doors and the question ‘what do you want to make bigger or smaller in your life?’ eat me, drink me.. Could I create such a soulful date for myself? I really thought I could. I’d take my journal, ask myself soulful questions and embody the responses with movement and asana. I couldn’t wait xx
Intu-Yoga 