Why Wait?

Strange things started to happen as I learned to trust I was connected to God (The Universe or whatever name you prefer). It became joyful, conversational and light. I felt like a child held by the hand and shown the wild possibilities of what this oneness actually meant.

One day I was cleaning the restaurant I used to manage. I had a stinking cold and every time I bent over I felt my head would explode as my nose streamed and I sneezed over and over again. I’d been playing with my oneness to God enough that I was now comfortably able to allow healing to flow to me. I’d often just utter a single sentence such as “this cold will be gone by tomorrow” and low and behold it would. It was like a dream. I couldn’t believe it could be that effortless. I think it’s because there was no fear involved with colds. A bigger diagnosis with emotional baggage would have been a different story with bigger resistence, but for now I was having fun.

So as I uttered the familiar sentence with a feeling of assurance that the energy would flow as I’d said, a voice jolted me out of my comfort zone. A literal voice. Inside my head but not me. It very simply said “Why not now?” That voice felt ancient, powerful but strangely personable. I replied without thinking “I don’t have the faith for now”. Another reply “The excellency of the power is of me unto you who believe”. It is a bible verse about the power that goes so far as to raise the dead. There it was again. A mirror saying I was having faith in my faith rather than faith in the Source. Subtle but with huge consequences. I was silenced.

The next bit is probably the wierdest bit of the story. Possibly even wierder than having someone talking to you in your head that isn’t you, and you reply. I absolutely completely and utterly forgot what just happened. As if I’d never heard a voice. I can’t explain it, but it was like nothing had just happened. I now know that temporary blank was a way of me offering no resistance to the words that were echoing through my being.

I continued to scrub the floor. Minutes later the owner of the resaurant entered the room from the kitchen and I stood up to talk to him. He had spoken to me that morning and seen me streaming and sneezing, wondering if I should just go to bed. His jaw dropped as I spoke. I had no cold. Not a tiny bit. Not even a sniffle. Nothing. I saw him do a double take and then what can you do except just acknowledge it and move on. I didn’t tell him what I’d just heard. The fact I’d somehow offered no resistance to God knows what and had been zapped by an immense creative healing power as I scrubbed the floor. I was utterly awe struck. Can you imagine how that felt? Like a door to the cosmos had just opened up and I’d accidentally wobbled through.

This happening has so many repurcussions when we think about modern day theories of the Law of Atrraction and any kind of spititual practice. What if we just woke up to the fact that we are already completely and utterly connected to the most immense power in the universe. What if we could stop looking at what we can do and instead look at the vast power we are attached to. What if ‘being still and knowing God’ blasts away all ideas of limits, that we really see that all things are possible. That we are attached to a Source that is both communing with us and full of humour, who knows how to guide and grow us like an incredible parent. What if this is enlightenment? I later learned that fear has a huge role to play in the fruit of such manifestations. If we only we had a pause button on our brain that we could push like the moment I had a complete blank. Maybe that’s the role of meditation?

This is one of many stories yet to come x Dream big because it’s closer than your heartbeat xx